Fireproof

So I have been dying to see "Fireproof" since it came out. We rented it last night and it was pretty good. About half way through, Ryan looks over at me and says, "this movie is wierd..." he didn't realize it was a 'churchy' movie, I guess. It stars Kirk Cameron and is about 'fireproofing' your marriage. It is kind of cheesy, it reminds me of something you would watch in seminary. But it was really good I thought! A definite renter!

Also here is a recent picture of Dusty. Middle row, 4th from the left.

Where is Marc Bordner?

A friend of mine has been missing since Saterday, and I wanted to post about him so hopefully we can get the word out and bring him home safley!

As of Saturday night (1-17-09) at around 8:30pm, Marc Bordner left his home with only the clothes he was wearing. He left behind his car, cell phone, personal items, etc. He informed his mother and myself that he would not have anywhere to stay soon. He has made no contact with any friends or family and made no mention of where he may go. Possible locations could be the Fresno temple, Utah, or Arizona. A missing persons report has been filed with the police department by his mother. This is a very scary situation. Anyone with any information or contact with Marc is asked to call me (Kristine 559-908-1447) or Bishop Lundquist immediately. We want him home and safe. And please, include him in your prayers every night.
ThanksKristine

Please come home safley Marc!

Our Day At The Park

So, today I took the babies to the park down the street from our house. It was perfect park-weather!!

I kind of panicked a little when we got there and I realized it was for big kids, but Alenna climbed everything like a pro! She's always been a climber.

Is he not the sweetest lil' guy??

They had this rock step thing you had to climb up to get to the slide and Alenna was amazing at it! Really, I was very proud of her because its intended for older children, and not 2 year olds!

Happy Brady having a snack. In not too long he will be wobbling around after his big sis!

Ah, -tear- for mommy!

He was really very content the whole time. Like this.

I climbed to the top of this big play thing to show Alenna how to do it. The park is right next to an elementary school and the kids were all out for recess. Several of the kids were yelling, "Look at that lady! She is playing on the toys!" They, of course were referring to me, and I felt a little silly, but maybe I will be considered a "cool mom" if I remain active in my kids' lives.

So earlier, we had a little scare. I was sitting in the family room using our coffee table to put my breakfast on and as I am biting into a piece of toast, I hear Brady coughing a little, so I turn my head to find Alenna shoving Ryan's keys up Brady's nose! I was sitting right next to them on the couch, and dropped everything to pull the keys out of his little nostrils. He was fine, didn't even whimper, as a matter of fact they were both laughing. Probably at my silly over-reaction. So, no harm done....but it sure got my blood pumping! I returned to finish my toast and couldn't find it on my plate! I figured I had finished it, though I couldn't remember finishing it. Hmm, odd....oh well. Later as I was cleaning up the family room, I found my toast lying jam-faced down on the carpet! Nice. In my panicked state to get the keys out of Brady's nose, I must have just flung it in the air and forgotten about it.

Odd how a mommy's mind works!

Alenna-isms

Alenna is at the age where everyday she is saying something new, and something funny. I wanted to remember what they are and here are just a few recent ones.

"baby....(yelling)SCOTT!!" (Brady Scott, which she calls him whenever he has just spit up or has had a bowl movement)

"GiGi in Ime Out!" (She was frustrated the other day with her GiGi, blanket, and put it in her room in time out.

"Ajew!" (Hold you....she means hold me)

"Rye! -laughing- no daddy!" (I will yell up to Ryan, and then she will call him Ryan (mimicking me), and than laugh and say, "no, daddy" because I always then will correct her and tell her to call him daddy.

"Sorwy, baby, I sorwy baby." (She says when she is in pain, cause I tell her, 'Sorry baby, I'm sorry baby' when she has a diaper rash or whatever. So that's how I know she is hurting)

"No Out" (I don't want to go to time out)

"Hungy," points to teeth ( she is hungry)

"Babbo Chas" (I need my diaper changed)

"Heshon" (Medicine- don't ask me where she came with that one! I have no clue!)

"Alenna chash?" (She has something to wants to throw in the trash and is asking permission)

She speaks in the 3rd person, which is kinda cute but soon will need to stop.

"No Reeja" (Not sleepy....again, no idea where that came from)

"Ama" (Me-Ma- my mom)

The other day I was cleaning, and I placed something I was about to dust on the floor, and told Alenna, "Don't touch please, it's dusty." She pauses and thinks for a minute (I can literally see the wheels turning in her head) and she says, "No, Mommy....Dusty mission!"

Haha yes, you're right Alenna, Dusty is on a mission.

I was reading an email from Dusty the other day, he was just transferred to a city called, Pachuca, and Alenna was sitting on my lap and I re-read the message to her. Alenna started cracking up at the word, Pachuca; she thought it was a made-up word, and apparently, very funny.

So, now I call her my little Pachuca and she says, "No! Dusty -Chuca!" (Dusty's a Pachuca) Ok, whatever...

She is such a hoot, and she doesn't even realize it.

Sometimes I will be laughing at something cute she does (like placing her plastic doll house juice in the fridge next to the real juice) and she will just look at me like,"What?" And than randomly will start laughing like she gets it.

Lets just say her silliness is what makes it all worth while!

Our Little 'Something' For Today

So our little guy finally did it!

He rolled over! I didn't see him, but Ryan did.

Yeah for progress! Go Brady! Go, Go Brady!

These close ups of my kids make me laugh. Their little faces all huge and distorted makes me smile.

We were just laying around taking a break from packing all day. Oh! And the amazing cable guy came today! I about died when I woke up a realized my internet wasn't working. Seriously, how did people live without internet???
Alenna climbing:
'Mt. Bergens-House-Full-Of-Crap-Compacted-Into-Move-able-Boxes'.

Can you believe there is still more?? Seriously, how can people who have only been married 4 years have so much? Insanity, pure insanity.

Here she is resting from her climb up.

There are like 60 boxes just here.

Humoring mommy. You may not be able to tell, but her bangs are poof-a-fied, as we call it.

That's a Bergen word. Yes, You can use it.

Ryan did this mosiac tile center piece in our entry way, and I still just love it!

How am I so lucky to have married such a talented guy??

"Our Greatest Danger In Life

Is In Permitting The Urgent Things

To Crowd Out The Important."

-Charles E. Hummel

Time Out For Mommy.

Ok, so its 12:00 am and everyone in the house is asleep but me. I am afraid I am developing a case of Insomnia.

I figured I would give an update on how our babies are doing, as if this blog wasn't enough of a tribute to them!

I will start with Miss. Alenna:

Alenna is 2 now, believe that or not. It seriously seems like she was just born! Everyday she is saying something new, and expressing ideas and sentances of her own. When she eats, she is very picky, she must have a sippy cup of milk, sit in her own chair, have everything on her plate mommy and daddy have on theirs', and she must have a towel to keep her hands clean. Alenna is working on potty-training. We almost had her trained, then we went to Utah and totally un-did all our hard work! Anways, she is slowly warming up to the idea of that again. She has devoloped a habit of asking permission to do every little stupid thing. Case of point, yesterday she had a full body for like 10 minutes and kept saying this same sentance over and over again that, for the life of me, I couldn't understand! Finally, a light clicked on in my brain, and I asked, "You want to sit on the couch?"

Frustrated and with tears streaming down her face she sighs, "YES!" Like, 'Duh Mommy!'

My goodness child, you don't have to ask over every little thing, is a frequent expression I am finding myself telling her. Alenna loves church. Anyone who has lived here in AZ knows there is a church on every corner, and anytime we pass one in the truck she points and yells, "Church!" And starts singing 'The Itsy Bitsy Spider." She must have picked that up from nursery. Alenna cannot say Brady. She thinks his name is Baby. I think we did a huge disservice to her in not naming him until he was born, plus Brady and Baby are very close sounding.

So, no one tells you this before you have kids, but every day is such a roller coaster! Seriously, one minute the kids will be laughing and playing together and I will think to myself, "Ah, this isn't so bad. Maybe one more would be fun." Without fail, the very next second they are both screaming and in fits. And I think to myself, "I can't even handle the kids I have!" Take this sitution and imagine it happening over and over all day and thats an average day at the Bergen house.

I really do enjoy the time I get with them though. They are the best thing I have ever done. I am so grateful I get to stay at home with them all day and mold them into the little angels they are becoming! The good times are great and even at their worst, they really aren't that bad. I am very lucky!

I will finish with Mr. Brady:

He's a big kid, we know, we hear it all the time. He is so opposite of how Alenna was. She has always been real thin and he is just a tank. All boy! We weighed him on Thanksgiving and he was 18lbs, yeah huge for a 3 month old! Anyways, we weighed him tonight and he is still 18lbs, which means, I think, that he has plateud for a while. He is so cuddley. He wants what he wants and there is no changing his mind. Hopefully he can use that to cure a disease or something! He has a little temper on him. Don't cross Brady. If he could smack you, he would. So, between Alenna's mood swings and Brady's temper, I think we are in for a couple crazy years! Other than the occasional temper-flair, Brady is pretty easy-going. Thankfully. Brady isn't rolling yet, thats ok, everyone does things at their own pace. He is at the point though, when he gets his legs kicking real strong he will totally turn himself 360 degrees! Brady is now 4 months old, and has the sweetest little smile; you cannot not smile around that kid! When he's not pissed, that is! Brady favors his mommy, but will tolerate his daddy for short peroids of time. Brady loves to watch his big sister! Alenna is his favorite thing to watch.

"Though babies grow and walk outside their mother's womb, they always remain a part of her."

Just Keep Breathing...Just keep Breathing....

(I love them!)

Well, new year.

My mom asked me the other day what our goals were for the new year were and I just about curled up in the fetal position and cried! I have so many things to get done this year, in particular this month, all I could say (through tears) is, "I'm just trying to survive this month, my brain cannot even comprehend anything more at this point."

Life, as usual, is insane. I am suprised I have a minute to blog. So, Ryan and I have been working on gutting out, cleaning and painting one of my father in laws' rental houses (he has 4 plus an apartment complex.) Thats been our huge project latley, and its been hard to take the kids over there, they don't really allow us to work. Ryan is there as I type this and I'm with the babies at home getting our house ready to be viewed.

We took our house off the rental market for a short time because we were getting so many responses and our house is not ready for someone else to move in just yet. Ryan is almost finished with the tile in the laundry room, (he's doing a great job!)next we have behind the appliances and coat closet along with our pantry. Then we need to finish cleaning up our backyard (another Ryan project that he is doing a fantastic job at.) Than its just little things like touching up paint here, applying spacle there, blah blah blah. Than the fun task of moving. Though, this time will be easier (last time we only had a weekend to move all our stuff and we both had to work one of the days...that still makes me mad.) This time though, we can move in stages. I am not complaining, mind you:we decided on this, I know. Just explaining a bit on whats going on with us.

Most of our stuff is being sold and everything that can't is going to Goodwill. We will just buy new stuff later. I am a bit sad....I sold my beautiful itailian leather set that was my pride and joy. At least this way my kids won't ruin any of the nice things we bought prior to having kids. Its all for the cause, I have to keep reminding myself...

(Deep Breathe....Deep Breathe....Deep Breathe!)

So, in the midsts of all this, Ryan was diagnosed with Valley Fever. Which is potentially fatal. Yeah, nice. Luckily, no damage has been done to his lungs and we are just going to have to let it run its course, there is no cure. So we are just living our lives, hoping for the best. (As the numbers on the scale of weight of my worry jumps sky-high!) Hopefully more on that later.

(Deeper Breathe...Deeper Breathe...Deeper Breathe!)

On a more positive note, Ryan starts his classes on the 22nd. He will apply to the different nursing schools in Aug. Please keep us in your prayers that he gets in right away....the sooner he gets in the sooner we can get on with our lives! Though I am happy that we finally have a direction in our lives and Ryan doesn't just bounce from thing to thing. It kind of feels like we are starting all over, cause in alot of ways we are, but I know in the long run this will be best, oppossed to what some may think!

As I was sitting here thinking about all this and feeling so overwhelmed I could hardly breathe, I was going through some pics from Christmas and started laughing! At least, no matter how much stress I am under, I still have a great relationship with Ryan and my kids. They make me laugh. Ryan is so great with me when it comes to all this anxiety. I could not do this without him.

“I have been impressed with the urgency of doing. Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Being willing is not enough; we must do.”~ Leonardo da Vinci