Just Keep Breathing...Just keep Breathing....

(I love them!)

Well, new year.

My mom asked me the other day what our goals were for the new year were and I just about curled up in the fetal position and cried! I have so many things to get done this year, in particular this month, all I could say (through tears) is, "I'm just trying to survive this month, my brain cannot even comprehend anything more at this point."

Life, as usual, is insane. I am suprised I have a minute to blog. So, Ryan and I have been working on gutting out, cleaning and painting one of my father in laws' rental houses (he has 4 plus an apartment complex.) Thats been our huge project latley, and its been hard to take the kids over there, they don't really allow us to work. Ryan is there as I type this and I'm with the babies at home getting our house ready to be viewed.

We took our house off the rental market for a short time because we were getting so many responses and our house is not ready for someone else to move in just yet. Ryan is almost finished with the tile in the laundry room, (he's doing a great job!)next we have behind the appliances and coat closet along with our pantry. Then we need to finish cleaning up our backyard (another Ryan project that he is doing a fantastic job at.) Than its just little things like touching up paint here, applying spacle there, blah blah blah. Than the fun task of moving. Though, this time will be easier (last time we only had a weekend to move all our stuff and we both had to work one of the days...that still makes me mad.) This time though, we can move in stages. I am not complaining, mind you:we decided on this, I know. Just explaining a bit on whats going on with us.

Most of our stuff is being sold and everything that can't is going to Goodwill. We will just buy new stuff later. I am a bit sad....I sold my beautiful itailian leather set that was my pride and joy. At least this way my kids won't ruin any of the nice things we bought prior to having kids. Its all for the cause, I have to keep reminding myself...

(Deep Breathe....Deep Breathe....Deep Breathe!)

So, in the midsts of all this, Ryan was diagnosed with Valley Fever. Which is potentially fatal. Yeah, nice. Luckily, no damage has been done to his lungs and we are just going to have to let it run its course, there is no cure. So we are just living our lives, hoping for the best. (As the numbers on the scale of weight of my worry jumps sky-high!) Hopefully more on that later.

(Deeper Breathe...Deeper Breathe...Deeper Breathe!)

On a more positive note, Ryan starts his classes on the 22nd. He will apply to the different nursing schools in Aug. Please keep us in your prayers that he gets in right away....the sooner he gets in the sooner we can get on with our lives! Though I am happy that we finally have a direction in our lives and Ryan doesn't just bounce from thing to thing. It kind of feels like we are starting all over, cause in alot of ways we are, but I know in the long run this will be best, oppossed to what some may think!

As I was sitting here thinking about all this and feeling so overwhelmed I could hardly breathe, I was going through some pics from Christmas and started laughing! At least, no matter how much stress I am under, I still have a great relationship with Ryan and my kids. They make me laugh. Ryan is so great with me when it comes to all this anxiety. I could not do this without him.

“I have been impressed with the urgency of doing. Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Being willing is not enough; we must do.”~ Leonardo da Vinci